December 2010
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You're respectable all the time.
dailypeptalk:
Pep Talk: You respect yourself everyday and tonight is no different. You will conduct yourself with grace and dignity, like always. You will only surround yourself with people that treat you well and your high self esteem will attract quality company. Today remind yourself: I’m respectable all the time.
This. 2011 will be the year I demand more. I continually ask more OF...
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Devil Knows You’re Dead - Delta Spirit
May...
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Actually starting to feel anxious about the new year.
Wake me up when it’s over?
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End of 2010
I couldn’t fall back asleep after the sore throat/thunderstorm wake-up at 6 a.m. I’ve already been up for five hours, watched a few episodes of season 4 of Friday Night Lights, ate breakfast, and cuddled with the cat. I have yet to hear from SW, despite his telling me we’d hang out “bright and early” today.
So, it’s time for a run (50 degrees! on December 31!...
: On New Years →
balltillifall:
Everyone should try to make 2011 a year we will be sad to see go because we were so happy and had so much fun. We shouldn’t lament a year after it passes, years aren’t something that should be “gotten through”. We’re not given that many of them so you have to enjoy them while you still have a few left.
I am always brought back to the Hold Steady lyric, “Let this be our annual...
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Complain
I want to complain more, but I’m tired of complaining.
So I’m just posting this instead. Complain complain complain.
Self-pity party commences on my own. Tumblr, keep me entertained this evening, please, thanks.
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Reflective run
I decided that it was a good use of the better part of an hour to go for a run, outdoors, since it’s 43 degrees on December 30, in CHICAGO.
Of course, I barely took into account the fact that snow plus warm weather means many, many, many puddles. My sneaks are soaked, and I am a sweat monster, but I really needed that run.
I jogged down from Evanston into Chicago, along the lake, and...
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For those who care
I called SW last night and told him it hurt my feelings when he said things about other girls to me. He apologized; it wasn’t quite what I was hoping for. Then again, he can’t know how I’m feeling, what I’m expecting, or what I want from him unless I tell him. So, for now, this will have to do, and next time we’re together in person, I’ll expand the...
Marathon Training for Beginners →
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bikinisummer:
I’ve been looking into a lot of different programs, but this is the one I’ve decided on. I’m going to start on Monday, January 3rd. I WILL get my butt out of bed and run 2 miles before skiing. I can do 2 miles no problem :)
Yay, I’m so glad you posted this! I think I’m going to start training after I try P90X Jan-March. So many workout adventures to come in...
aurynnx:
Grizzly Bear - Boy From School (Hot...
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Blue Mind - Alexi Murdoch
Time to sink way into...
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Dumb things
People sometimes say them. Maybe they just don’t think before they speak. But in this case, SW has been dropping comments about other women and his thinking they are attractive/sexy. Maybe he just doesn’t think about what he’s saying and how it might make me feel. Or maybe he just thinks I won’t or don’t care.
Whatever the reason, it hurts my feelings. And it makes...
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Blue Mind - Alexi Murdoch
Time to sink way into...
You're too busy to wonder.
dailypeptalk:
Pep Talk: Sometimes it’s better not to care what the person you’re currently obsessed is doing. They’re probably not doing anything that interesting, but you could be. Go occupy yourself. It’s time for you to care about your every move, not theirs.
Today remind yourself: I’m too busy to wonder.
And with this reminder, I’m getting myself out of the house for trivia night.
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“All progress stops in the contented man. I’m for agitation. It’s the...”
– Mother Jones
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In my head
SW and I ordered in some Chicago deep-dish and watched The Big Lebowski last night, had lots of cuddle time, and talked in the dark late into the night. He really opened up to me about some things, and I shared some of my life anxieties. For the first time, I felt like we ventured into getting to know one another, beyond the sparkly exteriors.
This morning, we lazed in bed forever, and he made me...
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Heading down
To SW’s in a few minutes. He’s back.
Catch you on the flipside, tumblrs.
When the going gets tough
bendoeslife:
Quit complaining and go for a run.
A long angry run.
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Nap?
Went to bed by 2, but got up at 7. Walked and fed dog, grabbed coffee, drove to O’Hare to pick up roommate P, circled O’Hare several times waiting for him to get his baggage, drove home.
Now, tired. Nap?
Later, lunch with friend, gym, laziness.
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Much as I love vegging out...
And much as I love having the time to veg out…
I’m kind of bored.
I wish people were around so we could play.
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FYI
I decided to do laundry and eat dinner and watch TV.
And SW just called to say his train is delayed by a lot, so he’s going to be back even later than previously anticipated. Sad story.
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Deliberate
Trying to decide whether I want to do yoga, do laundry, or eat and watch TV. Or some combination of any of these.
Today felt like a partial flop. I moved roommates’ and my cars, cared for the dog, went to buy Decemberists tickets, found out they were sold out, had coffee and a cupcake, finished reading a book on the psychology of optimal experience, continued reading my current Murakami,...
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Anyone know of cheap online used bookstores?
Otherwise, I am ordering almost $350 worth of books for winter quarter on Amazon.com. I kind of want to find a way to spend less on schoolbooks.
Also, other grad students, what do you do for about buying versus checking out of the library? I feel compelled to buy my books because they’re for my field, but it’s expensive…
Thoughts?
Obtaining a PhD degree is a waste of time: PhD... →
caraobrien:
jakke:
Whining PhD students are nothing new, but there seem to be genuine problems with the system that produces research doctorates (the practical “professional doctorates” in fields such as law, business and medicine have a more obvious value). There is an oversupply of PhDs. Although a doctorate is designed as training for a job in academia, the number of PhD positions is...
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Roughin' It
Today was one of those days where I needed to complain, cry, and feel bad for myself, and then get over it.
I told the schoolteacher I just wanted to be friends. I pushed my way through a 4+ mile interval hill AND speed run, after more than a week off. I walked the dog twice. I shoveled off my car and roommate P’s car and roommate W’s car and then shoveled all three out of the snow so...
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Today in a selection of words
Snow. Walks. Dog. TV. Cookies. SW. Friends. Beer. Snacks. Movies. Dog. Walks. Snow. Cookies. SW. Hot Toddy. Comedy. Aussies. Snow. Walks. Dog. Egg Nog. SW. Bed.
Tumblr is quiet on Christmas
Boo.
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Glerg
It’s 10:15 a.m., and I am still sleepy, despite having gone to bed a little after midnight. Know why?
The cat woke me up at 2 a.m. and 5 a.m. to be fed. Then, I woke up at 5:30 a.m. with the chills. Sudafed put me back to sleep around 7 a.m.
And now, of course, it’s time to get up and go take care of the pup. Out into the winter wonderland…
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SHHHH!
Yelling, screaming people and VERY LOUD barking dog.
QUIET. It’s almost midnight. People want to sleep. I want to sleep.
So, please, seriously, be quiet.
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Also
SW called me a little while ago to catch up on our first day apart in a while. Now I miss him more.
This is so new to me.
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Merry Christmas Eve
Christmas in Chicago.
I met up with becool-sodapop, and we shopped to our little hearts’ content. I bought a few nice simple long-sleeve shirts, a grey cardigan, and a GORGEOUS nubby sweater from Ann Taylor, and a coupe of sweater cardigans from Banana. Deals. Love. It’s basically like not spending money, right? At 40% off, they’re giving it away? Sort of.
We had coffee/hot...
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Finally in my own bed
It’s 3:30 a.m., and I’m finally in my own bed. It’s the first time in a week that I haven’t had SW here with me. It feels very strange. The cat’s happy, though, because since he’s not in my bed, she is.
I was going to write more, about the poker player and about SW, but I’m not really formulating words and sentences that make sense right now.
So instead...
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SW left
It’s weird knowing that I’m going to have to go a few days without seeing him. Since we met up, we haven’t spent more than 24 hours apart. Bizarre.
So, of course, I’m making plans like crazy, keeping busy with all the friends who are still around, and seeing the poker player later tonight.
Adventures in the life of TLM.
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Out the door again
Last night with SW before he goes back to {Redacted Hippieville} for the holiday. Movies and then my apartment to ourselves.
It’s going to be strange to spend a day away from him. Then again, that means time for MYSELF, time with becool-sodapop!, and time to reconnect with the poker player…
My life is weird right now.
Berezina, or The Unibrow: “True Love” In the... →
berezina:
“True Love”
In the middle of the night, when we get up after making love, we look at each other in complete friendship, we know so fully what the other has been doing. Bound to each other like mountaineers coming down from a mountain, bound with the tie of the delivery room, we wander down the hall to the bathroom, I can hardly walk, I wobble through the granular ...
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Update!
I have been in a whirl of time with SW. We spend some time every day together, both doing things around Chicago and also just enjoying each others’ company: watching movies, cooking, walking, cuddling, talking. It’s really been a whirlwind.
I’ve still got feet on the ground. I’m aware that he’s younger and maybe not in a place for anything serious. I’m not even...
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